This is what happens when I have one moment when my mind is not engaged in distraction. I was doing okay, playing a word game on my phone. I stopped to go to the bathroom. Walking through the bedroom my mind lurched where it always wants to go: “My kid is dead.” The unwanted thought […]

I haven’t written in a while. There’s very little change, good or bad. Each day feels much like the one before, neither backward or forward. I’ve become a master of avoidance. I distract myself from feeling what I feel. Riding, reading, gardening, letters to friends, social media, television. It all fills the time so I’m […]