Physical Manifestations of Grief

My fingers and hands are numb and tingling. A compressed nerve in my neck from my muscles staying bunched up tight night and day. They ache, and I shake them to try to restore feeling but it doesn’t work. It’s gotten difficult to type with my last two fingers, I can’t tell if they’re on the keys or not. I keep consciously trying to relax neck and shoulder muscles but they revert to tensed state almost instantly.

Scares me. I have to work. I am my only means of support. What if I can’t type? Without my hands I’m useless.